My Hopes .

Blogging always makes my day when people read my blog and comment on it . I am really glad to have readers like you guys and i do appreciate it lots .. So, here's another topic about my life . It all began when my hopes about someone/something were as high as the sky . I was really hoping that today miracles will happen . So i waited but it all went as deep as the sea soon after i realised that it is NOT going to happen . My hopes were crushed :( I shouldn't hope that some miracles would just appear in my life and i should just get over with it .. It is hard to let my hopes go . I kept hoping about it for days but today it seems that nothing will change .. I guess it will NEVER change . I am still thinking about it and i am trying not to put any hopes on it though . I can't lie to myself that i will never put any hopes . Furthermore, I am who I am . I don't live to be FAKE . I know that i can do something better for myself and my future ..  

I live for those who love me,
Whose hearts are kind and true;
For the Heaven that smiles above me,
And awaits my spirit too;
For all human ties that bind me,
For the task by God assigned me,
For the bright hopes yet to find me,
And the good that I can do . By: George Linnaeus Banks

 

I know that i can wait but until when ? It will always come to an end one day whether in a short or a long period of time .. I can move on but i know that i will keep thinking about the past because it is everything . It is a topic and even part of the chapter in my life . Without it, i can't get stronger to face anything ahead of me in future .. All the negative and positive thoughts would be hearing from others mindset that making me think the same as them and my own way of thinking . I get confused every time .. I told my mum about it but nothing change . She even told me that she wasn't interested about it and instead of encouraging me, she crushed my hopes . Patient is everything .What i will do now is wait till the day come and face it on my own . One day it will happen .. Still waiting patiently :)

And fluctuate 'twixt blind hopes and blind despairs,

And fancy that we put forth all our life,

And never know how with the soul it fares . By: Matthew Arnold