One's decision

Life is truly fair I suppose. We can't always get what we want. Good things. Bad things that we try to amend sometimes can't change the way it is. 

You and me was categorized as the sweetest couple at our working place. We've gone through many up's and down's. I was the optimistic one. Solving and settling every of our arguments every single time. You and me also have split personality but understanding yours was a very difficult one to handle. 

You've change since we entered Institute of Technical Education and I can't adapt to changes that you've made. I realised that you don't really want me to be around you in school when I was the one who kept bossing everywhere you go. You did slowly avoid me. I didn't understand that part. I always think that you are the most sweetest guy I've ever met. 

"Boyfriend, do you realise that you're restricting me from doing the things that I like and the things that always do.. You asked me not to meet you and text you often during school hours, talk to you when I'm having my monthly menses and call at times when you're out with your friends. Dulu time kite keje pun mcm gitu. Ask me to behave at work and end up you are the one who start to be manje manje with me. Its true that I have split personalities, I am selfish and attention seeking when I really when you to be with me at times when I need you.. Anything that I do always not right to you. I think the best time just to text or call you during weekends. Itu pun if you're not going out."

You decide everything. You want break-ups and leaving me thrice. Yet this silly girl I guess which is me, tried so hard to get back with you.. You don't realise that I truly and sincerely love you. You never treasure them. You are indecisive and changeable. You can't keep to what you actually want; to stay or to leave, to love or to ignore.

I understand that you want peace and not to argue. You never gave me the chance. You didn't believe that I was trying to understand you.

All about Libra!
Romantic and charming
Easygoing and sociable
Idealistic and peaceable
On the dark side...
Indecisive and changeable
Flirtatious and self-indulgent
Easily influenced


While me; Cancer,
Emotional and loving
Shrewd and cautious
Protective and sympathetic
On the dark side...
Changeable and moody
Overemotional and touchy
Clinging and unable to let go




I never able to let you go.. Not once after we broke-up. Finding ways to get back to you.. Although you are not my boyfriend since then, I treated you like as if you were still mine. I know that I'm irritating at those times when I still feel attach to you and you tried to avoid me even when you clearly say to me that you are not going to patch with me back. I'm not desperate but I was lonely.       

I feel stupid for waiting, believing and making so much effort. I told you that I was trying to forget you, like you always wanted, to be friends.  Two weeks, I tried and thought that I failed but I almost manage to forget you and close my heart for you, that's when you came and want to patch with me back. I gave you time to change your mind during that whole two weeks but you didn't say anything. I could say that I really love to be in this single world back. Nothing that relates to relationship that I need to think about. 

I don't know whether should I pick you back or to give others who makes me happy, who still stay and wait when I was in a relationship with you.. I gave you time and chances, now I hope you give me time to make this decision. My own decision. No matter what decision I choose, I hope either of you could still be friends with me.