Problems after one another.

Problems hit me all at once. I know I'm strong to face this. That's the reason why god gave me all this problems at once. I've talked this out to my close friend Sarah Omar. She gave me good advise and she had gone trough what I'm going through right now. I know I need to deal with this problems first or it will just haunt me over and over.. The thing is I can't find a way to solve this problems. I've tried. I've tried talking to this people but they don't seem to make an effort to understand and to try to get along back to me like they use to.. Now I left with only one option. Not a good one. It won't solve this problems. I force myself to not think about this problems. When I think about it, it's either I cried or I ignore. I'm tried of crying everyday. I tired of thinking about my problems.

I don't want to sit at home and keep quiet all day long. Tweeting, smoke, eat, tweet again, watch movies, still facing the same problems everyday. Others ask me, how do I face all this? Like me tell you, I always ask to myself and god. Why is all this happening to me? Was it my fault? I had to ignore those thoughts because I still don't know what was the reason. Some people said, cry. Cry all you want. Just let out your feelings. Yes, after I cry. I already let out some feelings. Not all.. Then I get tired. After that I tweet about it and go to bed. I get tired after crying. What was I suppose to do? They ignore me and I ignore them too? I shall give it a try. Give what they want. Everyday living with the same problems. Thanks to Sarah. I got her every night listening to my problems.