Last one.

There's too much that I've put for the previous relationship. Now it's already mid October, I wish for something else. Maybe a person who can really love me and wouldn't hurt me. Or something that can make me busy. Busy enough so that I can forget about the longest relationship that I've been through. I had enough of the shit that I had to hide behind the tears and scars that leave with me. Thank god it is over now although the feeling is still there. I just want to get over and done with it. Not wanting this to happen between us but I think this is the best. Just letting out what is left behind. When you want me, you tried hard. Once you got me, you don't care. Before we were still in good terms maybe? That's how I think. I still wanting to celebrate your birthday even when we already broke off. After all the planning, you left me hanging. You didn't text neither you have the initiative to call me and tell me that you weren't able to make it. I was left alone at a place where I am scared of. To be alone at that kind of place is pretty scary. Especially to a girl like me. Instead of you come down, I had to go down at your work place to argue with you in front of all of our friends? I didn't wish that to happen but I was to tired to follow your ego. You weren't gentlemen enough to come down and fetch me. You were once my hero. I was too blinded by love that end with stupidity. I shouted at you to let go of the pain in me. Maybe your past may cause you to do all this to me. But why am I the person? Have I been giving you problems? That day was meant to be special. A day to spend part of celebrating your birthday. I know that it was a mistake to throw the present at you. I can't help it anymore. I was in a total anger. Since then, you don't exist in my life anymore. Not even a birthday message was send from my phone to yours. Whenever I come down to that same place, saw you. Ignoring you.